I was just going back through some of my old writings, and I got really encouraged. I've posted a few of them down below so you could see if you wanted to see what I'm referring to. Basically, the reason I'm so encouraged is because the things that I was struggling with when I wrote these things have been resolved. In some cases, it took years to work through some of them, but now, I look back and am amazed at how far I've come! God is just so good! He's so faithful, and I love being able to trust in Him! Even when things didn't make sense, He made sense out of things and brought them around for the good. It also really encourages me for the present, because I know that I can trust God with things I'm dealing with now. He's always faithful, and I know that as I continue to pursue His will and purpose in ALL things, He will continually bring good out of them. It's an awesome feeling, being able to truly rely on someone and know that they will NEVER let you down!
"save me"
it happens
that is what they say
but it still matters
and it hurts
because it makes me hate you
but i don't want to
and i don't know how
to fix this
and i keep
falling apart
crumbling inside
and trying to cover it up
but then it happens again
and i can't ignore
the pain you cause
and i hate you more
God, please
help me come back
to where i'm found
in you
because i'm falling
and sinking
deeper and deeper
so save me, please
"it's over"
it's been two years
and i finally see
that you weren't all
i thought you to be
i thought i would never
be okay again
but now i'm here
and i'm over it
and i'm over you
and i'm over everything
i thought i knew
yes, it's finally true
and it feels good
not knowing anymore
what i want because
it means that i'm free
free to dream
and hope
and be
someone who is me
and though you never knew
i felt this way
it feels good
just the same
"the blowing wind..."
Do you hear me?
I'm crying out tonight
I want to be real
I want to be true
I want to be everything I'm supposed to
But the walls around me
Keep growing higher
With every fake smile
With every hidden tear
I'm becoming stuck here
How can this be?
What happened to the dreams I could once see?
They're gone with the wind
The wind that keeps blowing me
Blowing me away from who I'm supposed to be
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Dear Bekah love,
ReplyDeleteReading what you wrote bring some memories back to myself, which used to hurt me a lot. But now, finding strength in Him, I am able to live freely again. Free from the hatred and anger that used to control me so much last time.
I am grateful that we can always rely on Him. Everything. As long as we let ourselves open to let Him in, He can always help us to fix the problems.
He is indeed faithful =)
Love u!!!!
Amy