Worth It

Sometimes we plan things
And they fall through
Sometimes our dreams
Never become reality
Sometimes our hope
Brings disappointment
And looking back
It doesn't make sense
But we have to trust
We have to know
We must believe
That God is sovereign
His plans are greater
His dreams are bigger
His hope does not disappoint
And His promises are true
In the end we will see
It was all worth it

Every Time

It happens like this every time

But more frequently now

When did it get this bad?

How did you get this way?

But in a way I understand

I used to be that way too

But it was different

Because I kept it all inside

But you don't, do you?

You scream it for the world

While you're running the streets

Does it help?

It's only getting worse

I never wanted this for you

I don't want it for you now

I wish I could just bring a solution

It's hard sitting here

Just watching

A part of me dies for you

Every single time

But you don't care

You don't see

No matter how hard I try

No matter what I do

I pray that you find

The freedom I have found

Freedom from hate

Freedom to forgive

But for now

Every time I will be here

Watching and praying

That it all will end

The King's Garden

Are the flowers not lovely?
Is the produce not of best quality?

Does the master not care for each?

He plants

He waters

He weeds

They grow

The master delights in them

Is each not special?

Does the master not find each beautiful?

Are they not?

Some are big

Some are small

Some are fragile

Some are strong

But he cares for them all

But not all care for the King's Garden

Some steal his precious beings

And distort them

Lie to them

Mistreat them

This saddens the King

He longs for their return

To repair and make new again

For his love is so great

So wide and so deep

Unconditional

Incomprehensible

But it doesn't matter

That it cannot be understood

Because the love is real and perfect

And his love makes the garden grow

maybe I'm frustrated

You need to be more careful
Look at how you act
I'm so worried about you
But maybe you're just not afraid
Maybe I just was

I can't figure you out
You don't talk like the rest
It's like I'm always tiptoeing
I want normal
But maybe I don't

You make me mad sometimes
You say all this stuff
And it isn't even true
You believe it though
Maybe I'm guilty too

I want to be your friend
And I think we're getting better
But then I'm not sure
You probably don't care
But maybe I do

Running

I'm running.
I'm running after You.

I won't look right
Not even left
Because I'm running.

Though it's hard
Even if I'm weary
I'll be running.

Through the desert
Through the storms
You'll see me running.

Forever
Alone if I must
I'll be running.

Oh, LORD, I'm running
...and I'm running HARD

hello, -OH

I smell you again
You remind me of the past
And it sickens me

And, pardon me,
But I don't understand
Why you're here

But, alas,
You exist even now
And you're part of our lives

I suppose some don't see the problem
But I've seen you at work
I've seen what you can do

And let me assure you
You will have no part of my life
No part of my future

I can only hope
The others avoid you as well
But I can't control them

But I will do what I can
PRAY WITHOUT CEASING
And that, my non-friend, is more powerful than you

I hope you know

If I had to search campus for you every night
If I had to just listen to you for hours
If I had to hold you tightly while you cried
If I had to never sleep again
If I had to give up everything else in my life

I would do it ALL
I would do anything
For you to get better

Because it hurts me to see you this way
And because you're my best friend
But mostly because I LOVE YOU